I LoSt My FrIEnD..

on 10/7, i received a mes from Kak Chik hp
Her hus send a mes saying that kak chik was in ICU at Hospital Seberang Jaya
it ReaLLy Make Me ShOCkEd
I RepLy the SmS AskiNg wHat MAke her Wife beInG iN ICU
he SaiD her wiFe have An InFeCtIoN at HEr LUnG
Then shE AdMITTed In HoSpiTal..
On ThE EvEniNg Of 18/7/09,
My Mum And MY DaD WaS Just To ViSIT Her AT HospItAl At The DaY She PasSeD AwAy
BuT It'S Too LaTe..
She DieD beForE My MuM and MY Dad MakE A MOVe TO HSJ..
So,My MUM and My DaD JusT vIsiT ArwAh at Her HOuse..
My Mum SAiD ArWAh Is TotALLy DiFFeREnt BecaUSE of The DruGs ANd WatEr GIveN to Her WhilE shE AdmiTTed At The ICu..
BuT For SurE..
She's A VerY GooD FrIENd Of MinE..
I NeVEr See SHe GeT AngRy SinCe We've bE FrieNd FoR AlMosT 15 YeArS..
ShE's VeRy KinD PerSoN,LoVE tO sMILe..
TIll NoW I Can StilL SEe Her SmiLInG..
HEr LAuGh aND EvErYthInG..
BuT ALLAh LoVe Her MoRe..

To ArWaH KAk ChIK,
SmG Kak ChIk teNAnG Di sanA & DiTEmpAtkan BErsAmA2 OrAng YAng BEriMAn..I'M GoNNA Miss U FoR THe REsT Of My LiFe..ThaNx FoR tHE FRiENDsHip ThaT We'VE ShaRe FoR All THIS time..UnTill Now I'm still CrYing WhILE thInKinG OF HEr..ReAllY Miss U..Al FatIhAh

Epi FaThEr's Day

to my deary father..
thanx for all the things that u've done to me..
thanx for always be with me no matter what..
thanx for being such a good father and also a good friend to me..
thanx for always listening to all of my stories..
thanx for sharing the laugh and sadness things with me..
thanx for being so understanding..
thanx for always supporting me in all decision that i've made..
thanx for being there with me when i feel down..
thanx for everything..ayah..

there's no words can describe how much u meant to me..
how much i love u..
and i my self really don't know how my life will be without u..
u a very special in my life..

ayah,
i really love u,care for u and i will do anything for you just to make u happy..
i hope one day i will have a time to repay all ur kindness things that u have done..

Ya Allah,kau panjangkanlah umur ayahku..kau sihatkanlah dia..kau selamatkanlah dia dr segala bhy bencana..lindungilah dia setiap masa Ya Allah..
sesungguhnya aku terlalu menyayangi dirinya..

To my deary father;Abdul Aziz Bin Din

tq so much for all the things u've done..
i really love u with all my heart..
thanx for being a great father..
i love u dad..really love u..

BenGaNg!!!

dr semalam lg aku mmg bengang giler..
terlalu bengang..
sakit hati,geram..
smua ada..n i cried because of that things
i'm very tired of all that things that happen..
if i can turn that times back..
but unfortunately i can't..
i wish all kind of this stupid things i won't face again..
but it keep coming..
like i want to run away from everybody!!!
i hate the things happen!!!!
arrrgggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

New Job!!

well,my dear friend..
now,everyday i have to go out and see our customer
everyday I have to go out to a different hospital that i covered..

actually,my new job is very interesting..
i really enjoy my new job..
being all days in hosptal,makes me realize how important for us to take good care on our health..

meet with people..u all knows la
not all are friendly..
but in sales area,that is the common situation we will face everyday
and we,have to be prepared..
i never regreted being in sales area..
eventhough i'm from science background..
but i'm very happy to be in sales area
furthermore,i still use my knowledge coz i'm teaching standard 2-6 in Malay and Mathematics..alhamdulillah..
erm..my hubby also don't mind on what i'm doing..
he always give me support on everything i did..

to my dearie hubby,
thanx for being so understanding..
i really love u with all my heart...

AnAK

When u all see the title above..
i think u all can guess the things that i would like to share today..

well,me and my hubby have been married for alomost 2 years
but till now we don't have any child yet..
peoples around us keep asking ...

'dah ada baby ka?dh brp anak ada?and so on so on..

when we told them(my hubby always give the answer to them)..

'belum lagi..belum ada rezeki lagi..'

then their answer will be like this..

'merancang ke?buat apa merancang?ingat dah ada 2,3 anak dh..'

and we?just smiled..

sometimes i feel tired answering this kind of question..

when I'm not married,people asked me

'bila nk kawen'

and when I've married..
they keep asking me..

'bila nak ada baby?dah berapa orang anak?

sometimes i just want to scream and tell them..

'NO..WE DON'T HAVE BB YET..WE ARE STILL TRYING..BELUM REZEKI KAMI..FURTHERMORE PERSOALAN BABY IS VERY SUBJECTIVE..I DON'T HAVE THE ANSWER..'

we already done our level best..

we've seen gynae, we've done traditional way(seing bidan,urut), we've taken a buah zuriat from Mekah..we've taken everything that can help us to get a baby..

we've done solat Hajat(always), asking from God to give us a baby..

when I see and hear my friends get pregnant,especially my friends that get married after me..
I wish I had that kind of experience too..
to get pregnant and have our own baby..

sometimes people don't understand..
they keep asking,

'dah ada bb?..'

plz don't asked that question anymore..
i'm really tired to answer the question..
sometimes,I feel like i'm going to put a small banner at my body and write..

'I don't have baby yet..so,plz don't asked anything..'

especially when going back to my hometown..
or at kenduri that we attend..

I already told myself,when I get pregnant,I will let everyone knows..that will be my promise..

I feel happy to hear people around me get pregnant..
but deeply in my heart..I'm so down..so sad..
people don't know that sometimes I cry when thinking of that things..
even my hubby don't know..
sometimes I wake up at night and cry when thinking about that..
I really want a baby but I don't want to force or stress myself for that..
just let it be naturally..

I'm very thankful to my hubby,my family for being so understanding and supportive
they always asked me to be positive..
and don't bother other people words.

We always pray that God will give us a chance to have our own baby...
to have the experience being a mother and father..
We never put the end to try and try as much as we can and done everything for that..
Insyaallah,we really believe we will get our own baby soon..

NeW PlaCe...

yup..this is my new job place now..
i've already been here since 15/05/09..
i've been here for almost one month..
sekejap je ms kan..mcm x caye je..

ehehehe..well,this company is a supplier for medical disposable
so,my new job now,need me to go to hospital..
meet the HOD,Doc, MA,Matron,Sister,Staff Nurse and also patient..hahahaha
but for me this job is very interesting and challenging coz we have to conmpete with other medical supplier(competitor)..i may need to go out every day but it's ok..
i won't be sleepy any more..hahahahaha..

hope i can work here for a long time period coz i love the environtment so much

Last Day In MElanGi

Melangi..hr nie 14/05/2009
genapla 2 thn aku keja kat sini..

best sgt keje kat sini..bos pun sgt baik..
no pressure at all..enjoyed working here..

but hr nie last day aku kat melangi..
sbbnya esok aku akan mula keje kat tmpt br..
hrp2 smuanya ok mcm skrg..

ikutkan hati aku nie,aku berat sgt nk tinggalkan melangi..
syg sgt kat melangi nie
mcm2 kenangan aku ada kat sini..
kenangan yg indah je..adoila..
i wish i will be staying here forever..
but that is my wish only...



i will remember my bos..
mr tai,mr max, and mr chan..
u guys are very kind,understanding..
really enjoyed working with u all..